Nutrition reset – day two! Shakeology, Natures Sunshine, emotional triggers, New Life Ministries

Ok, yesterday wasn't that much different from a regular day, except that we added our cleanse materials and subtracted dessert and substituted Shakeology. Actually, we started cutting back on desert a few days ago. Interestingly just subtracting my dessert and less healthy snacks that I've been grabbing throughout the past several weeks has caused me to lose about 4 pounds just in the past three or four days. It makes sense, because I am definitely burning plenty of calories at this point at the gym to be losing some weight, so I knew my nutrition was the thing holding me back.

Life at home continues to make thinking about losing weight a little challenging, especially since having children is particularly stressful when they're  this young and have such constant needs. Ironically, Chloe's ten-month a growth spurt happened the same day I tried to start focusing on a nutrition change – ha ha! So here I am feeding her every two hours, she is extremely cranky, Christian is frustrated because she is so fussy, and I want to do is pick up a sabotaging snack. I am grateful that I have been doing the heart work needed to not have such deep wounds and that the habit of grabbing unhealthy snack is a lot easier to avoid.

A little more on what I have been doing in that regard. This February I attended NewLife ministries' lose it for life conference weekend. Ever since, I have taken part in weekly group counseling sessions with the girls in the group I was with during that weekend. Additionally, I have been in a very transformative last called women skills at my church that addresses the deep wounds of childhood.

During that class, I learned that I identify with 12 of the 14 triggers that people with post dramatic stress disorder half. I'm starting to understand why I have such a difficult time relating with others, and why I am so afraid to open up my heart. My weight has been a boundary that has kept me safe from being vulnerable and open in relationships, while I was completely unaware of it.

It's a beginning, a step in a journey, and there's much more depth that I can go into over time. I'm convinced that this is my year, and that I can see all of the pieces fall together that God has been molding in me.