Nutrition reset – Day 8

Monday morning is here, and with that comes the transition from having my family together to feeling just a little torn apart. Sometimes I have to think about military wives and how  they often live without husbands for months on end so that I can gain some perspective on the challenge of being apart from my husband during the day. For some reason, when Robert leaves to go to work I feel a measure of grief and loss. My rational, logical brain tells me that it is normal, it's silly to feel sad, that he will be home in a few short hours. My heart, on the other hand, which is riddled with abandonment, rejection and trauma tries to hold on for dear life. I don't want him to leave the house, I want him to stay and keep me safe. I want to work together for common goals, side-by-side, hand in hand. I want him to shield me, to protect me from the world. But of course, he cannot. So… At least in the past… I eat.

Processing these feelings today, I have begun to realize just how many situations I medicate with food. I'm so thankful for New Life Ministries, which is the ministry responsible for the Lose It For life workshop I attended in February of this year, 2014. As I hoped, they get to the root and the heart issues and help you to see that the weight  is not the problem. The heart is where the real transformation needs to begin. It's so true, and as I work on reducing my calorie intake I can see that the healing work is the thing that I was missing before.